The Haunting Hour

And no, I'm not talking about Halloween.

I'm freaking out about Christmas.

I have all the yarn I need. I think. I just don't think I'll ever find enough time to sit and actually get everything done. Scratch that. I don't think I have the patience to get everything done.

Another issue? I'm running out of motivation. I had most of yesterday off because I didn't feel good at all. I had all that time while Chris played his video game, yet I knit nothing. I did get my Ravenclaw sock worked on. I've only got two more rows before I start the heel chart. Somewhere I got messed up and I have one extra row, but in the grand scheme of things, I think it'll be ok. I made a note of it on the pattern so that as I work the second sock, maybe I'll see what happened. 

Oh yeah, and I tried to get the sock on last night, but I don't think it will fit. Oh well I guess. Good Christmas present for Ande. I can make some that look better. I can learn intarsia to do the eagles so they don't look all janky from the yarn-carrying. Ha. Take that little sister.

I'm starving. I had a really good day at work, but I didn't get off till 5 and now I want wings, but Chris is taking forever to get home. Meebo said he left at 6:17, but he still isn't home. Tick tock, babycakes. I'm ravenous.

The wonderful weather in Indiana is giving us nothing but rain all weekend. Cold, icky, ice cold rain. By Monday we're supposed to be getting snow. What a bunch of crap that is. It's only October and already it's starting to snow. Suck.

Chris and my anniversary is Sunday. I don't quite have his present done. I tried to finish it. I've been working on it since June. That was something I wanted to work on yesterday while I was home sick, but Chris decided that he needed to stay home and take care of me for some reason. So I didn't get any of it done. Maybe he'll do laundry tomorrow at his mom's and I can stay here and work on it...He still thinks I knit him something. :)

Gotta go get food. He's finally home! Woohoo!

Christmas Creeps Ever So Close Now...

It's been a while since my last post.  A lot has happened since then. But, I'm not really here to talk about my life outside knitting. At least, not today.

Instead, I want to make my Christmas list. Not what I want, but what I need to make for everyone else. I'm going to try and sort this list by importance.

1. Ande...Oh jeeze, what to make for the little sister. Scarf in school colors? Arm-warmers? Socks? I think I might need to revisit her after my list is done.

2. Mom...Mom loves scarves. Just which yarn to use is the question. And the fact that I HATE making scarves...

3. Chris...I put him lower on the list because I have already gotten him several things for Christmas. Chris wants me to finish his fingerless gloves, but the yarn has no give at all, and they are just no fun to make. He doesn't really wear scarves or hats. I could do another pair of socks...

4. My swap partner...Here is an issue. What the hell to make for her? I want to do an iPod sweater because she said she loves it and I just think they are so darn cute. But what else?

5. Donnie...Gotta finish the Jughead Hat!

6. Dad...Same as Donnie, only black with different colors for the points, I think.

7. Marcell...Scarf out of the Nikki I bought just for her...But I HATE scarves!

8. The Kids...Gwen, Gabe, Abby, Melanie...I already have a sweater for Gabe, and I think I can pump out a cute little pair of socks for him. Making socks for the girls shouldn't be too hard. But I'll probably need more needles to get them done in time.

9. Kacy...Grr. I hate making things for Kacy because I don't know what she'll use. I think she needs one of those catear hats. That'd be cute.

I'm so going to be late for work if I continue writing like this. I will try and revisit this list before work tomorrow. For now-Must dash!

Dealing With A Child's Death

She wasn't my little girl, but I loved her just the same.

Lillian Rose Kelly, I'm going to miss how you giggled and screamed when we played. I'm going to miss hearing you wake me up in the morning. I'm sorry I didn't share more of my string cheese with you, but I'm not sorry about giving you Mountain Dew in your sippy cup before your mom came home. I hope you liked playing dress up in my clothes. You looked so much like your dad. I know Autumn is going to miss you like crazy even if you were never a terribly big fan of hers.

Anyone who reads this should know that it wasn't Brandi's fault, even if she believes it is for the rest of her life. We loved Lilly so much. She never cried, and she was always messy.

Keep Brandi, Jeremy, and Autumn in your thoughts. I can't imagine loosing a daughter after only two years, and I can't imagine loosing my younger sister.

I'll miss you Lilly.

Everything's Coming Up Milhouse!...er...Kassi!

What a great day to end a perfect weekend. Friday night was great. I had dinner with my boyfriend and I got to go to a knit in. The knit in was great. I teamed up with mksmiles to make a pair of socks that I found on knitty. She is the fastest sock knitter around and was working on a pair of stranded Gryfindor socks. I showed her the pattern thinking she might like to try them sometime and before we left, she had already cast on and was half way through her cuff ribbing. I left with some black Cascade Heritage and a pair of loaner needles that go to Edith when I've finished my socks (hopefully before this weekend!). I couldn't stay terribly long at the knit in because I had to work Saturday morning.
Saturday breakfast was great! I had 3 tables total and worked about 2 hours (I was there for 4 doing sidework and the like), and at the end of the day I had walked away with $34! I was shocked at how well I had done on my first day on my own. I really like working at Flat Top. So far everyone has been really nice and I'm learning a whole new side of food service. I still need to get my liquor liscense, but I'm not totally sure how to go about doing that. Val and Christen were suppsed to get back to me on that but haven't yet. However, there are still two girls that are training, so maybe after that's all finished, I can go to that class.
After work, Chris and I had lunch at Flat Top. It was only nine-something for the both of us to eat since I can bring a guest and get 50% off. After that we went to Sarah Jane's so I could pick up the pink I needed to strand these socks with. I still owe Laurie some money from the black I got, but I plan on going in Wednesday afternoon or maybe Thursday and paying her. I also want to pick up a little something extra for Chris...
We came back to the house and Chris and I had some dirty fun, got cleaned up and decided to go grocery shopping. At Wal*Mart, we both got hair dye and I finally, after all these years of wishful thinking, dyed my hair black. I love it! Chris now has pinky-red bright hair and I really like his too. After that we watched a cute romance movie and ate junk food.
Sunday, I taught myself how to knit continental! I was absolutely frustrated on my way to Jenni's bridal shower, but once I got home, I picked up my socks and with the black in my right and the pink in my left, I started knitting. It's so easy! I am reading a chart and knitting continental and it's so much fun! My socks are speeding right along. I should have my first one done tomorrow or Wednesday, time permitting. The same lady that designed the socks I'm making also designed a pair of socks called "bpm" and they have a stranded Space Invaders design that Chris thought was really cool. I want to make them for him, but I need to find a neon color of green. I can't use varigated or self striping in these socks because that's not what the game looked like. Chris wants to do the chalk walk next year and has previously mentioned doing a Space Invaders scene, so I think these socks might be his Christmas present, if I can get everyone else's done too.
I also got my swap partner for the college knitter's group. She is going into her freshman year at Northern Arizona University. I think it must be in the mountains because all of her projects are scarves, hats and mittens. I think I'm going to use that Bernat blue yarn to make her a couple of fingerless gloves with her school name embroidered. Maybe. I also found a cute/cheap cardigan pattern that I just love. I want one for myself, but I think it would be something nice to give her too. Now I just need to figure out what else to put in her package. Stickers? Pens? A Beanie Baby?
Chris took me out for wings after Jenni's bridal shower. Leslie and I talked about knitting a bunch and I got to see pictures of Jenni's dress. It's so beautiful. I hope I can find a dress as pretty as hers if I ever get married. It was weird talking about what my wedding could be like. It made me think of Chris, but it was just weird. The wings were fantastic.
My socks are coming along so well and I'm actually doing a good job on something more complicated than I've ever tried before. I'm really excited to get them done so I'm working my ass off knitting up a storm. I want to hijack Chris's computer tonight and add pictures to Ravelry so that mk can see what I've been up to.
I also want to start Ravenclaw socks for the movie...But I have to Christmas knit. And swap knit. And finish Chris's anniversary present. And make his gloves he bought. So...I guess we'll see if I ever get around to those socks. They would be blue and silver even though they are blue and bronze in the book. Blue and bronze are just too ugly togther for me. Plus, gray/silver yarn is WAY easier to find than bronze. If you're looking for bronze, you'll end up with brown. Yucky orangey pukey brown. Not something I'd like to wear around. I think I want to try Knitting Off Broadway to see what color green she has for Chris's Space Invader socks. I don't think Sarah Jane's has a solid green that color. I dunno. I'll check when I go to pay for the black.
I gotta vacuum, get dressed and do some dishes/laundry before Chris gets home. I was thinking about putting my dress on and doing some pin up curls. Wouldn't that be sweet?

My Name is _______, and I'll be Your Server Today!

Welcome to Flat Top Grill, my new place of employment!
I thought that once I had heard the great news I would have posted immediately, but I guess not. I got the job last Tuesday and started Monday of this week. I am the youngest server at Flat Top and the only server without a liquor license. That's in the works though. I really enjoy the work. So far, I haven't been able to keep any tips because I've still been training. Tomorrow is the first time I'll get to keep what I make. However, I found out yesterday that the girl who was training me (Tristan) was making really good tips because of me. That's good news, right?
I have a knit in tonight and I have no fucking clue what to take with me. I was thinking about taking a sock pattern and asking Chris if he wants me to make him a pair of socks. My mom is bringing part of my rent money (I hope...), so Chris will have a bit of extra cash. I think it's probably going to go towards groceries (and aftershave!) but who needs $300 worth of groceries?
I can't wait to start making money. The first paychecks this month go out tomorrow, but I don't think I'll get one this week since I just started. They are probably like Ritter's with overlapping pay periods. This check probably ended Sunday, which means I wouldn't get one anyways because I didn't start until Monday.
Alright, so this has been pissing me off: Why is my computer saying that "didn't" isn't a word? It's saying that "isn't" also is not a word. Is it illegal to use contractions now?
Someone in my building is slamming doors and pissing me off even further than the incorrect use of contractions by me and/or my computer. It's not the people downstairs like usual...I think. It might be, but it feels like 1C, and I'm pretty sure no one lives there. Maybe 2C is the culprit. I know people live there, but they are so friendly and quiet usually. My whole friggin' apartment is shaking! It better not be some goddamn kids throwing shit in the stairways. I'll be pissed.
My mom should be here within 45 minutes and I'm sitting on the floor naked wrapped in my blanket (the air was set on freezing all night and my apartment takes forever to warm up). I'm thinking that at some point I should get dressed. But first, I'm going to look at some super awesome sock patterns for Chris. He says he wants blue and orange, but I don't want to buy two separate things of yarn. I would rather just make him a pair of black or orange. Not both together.
So...An incomplete list of shit that I need to get done today:
1. Get dressed
2. Clear everything off the living room and bedroom floors so I can sweep
(Side note! Chris came home from his mom's last night with two surprises. A package of Oreos and a VACUUM! His mom bought me a vacuum! I sat on the floor for about a half hour just playing with it because I'm so happy!)
3. Get my bank set up for tomorrow morning. This involves getting change for a 20 and going through our spare change to come up with about $3 in mixed coinage...Something I'm really not looking forward to.
4. Do the dishes. Ew.
5. Work on Chris's anniversary gift. I haven't really had a chance to work on it at all this week, and the clock is ticking. Today, Monday, and Thursday are the only day next week to work on it.
6. Crush some of my damn pop cans if I have time.
7. Shower.
8. Knit in.
9. Sleep so I can get up at 7 to go to work. Yay breakfast shifts!
10. Grocery shop tomorrow...If my mom brings us some money. Fingers crossed.

Ok...Off to start my day.

Where's the Love?

I miss romance.
Do men really buy their wives/girlfriends flowers every once and a while?
When girls get dressed up, don't men usually say that they look pretty?
I thought that when girls fished for compliments, men gave them some just to either shut up or get some?
I'd be happy for either at this point. I make him breakfast every weekend, and he just takes it for granted. Maybe I should just give up on breakfast. He never eats any of it anyways. Then he just complains that the dishes aren't done and he wants lunch.
I made him meatloaf because he says how much he likes it. I cried because I ate his chips and he got mad. It's like he doesn't care.
I know I've been kind of useless this past month. I have been looking for a job (I have one as of yesterday), and been pretty broke. But it's not just this past month that has been bothering me.
It's just a general lack of anything remotely related to romance.
Download a movie. Watch the Simpsons. Have sex. Download another movie. Have sex. Watch some more Simpsons. Eat dinner. Dishes aren't done. Have sex. Watch more Simpsons. Have sex. I try to make the house look nice or get dressed up or make a special dessert for him...And I just get ignored.
Maybe things will get better after I start making money. Then Chris won't be as disappointed in me. Maybe that will help with him actually trying to be romantic.

New Month...New Term...New Job...New Life?

I've got a job interview! Today at 3...And maybe one later. When I left Fricker's, the manager said he would call on Sunday night and let me know about orientation on Monday...But he never called. So, I'm gonna call around 10:30 and see if they got a chance to review my application. Worst possible outcome-they say they need someone with serving experience and I still have my interview at Flat Top Grille. Best possible outcome-they say they did and want me to come in tonight and pick up my Fricker's shirt because I've been hired, and I still have my interview at Flat Top. Prepare for the worst, hope for the best.
So far, this month has been pretty lame. I'm totally broke and I am trying to come up with the $300 I need to give Chris for rent. Maybe I should go to amature night at Showgirls tomorrow night. I bet I could make some good money. I don't have anything to dance in...Maybe I'll just win the lottery. That sounds easy, right? $35,000 would be awesome and I get so much accomplished with that much money. I'll just win the lottery.
School starts in less than a month. I need to get books, but I only need three. I need a French workbook, an Anthropology book and a book for my communications class. It shouldn't be terribly expensive considering Chris and I are sharing a French book and I already have all my math stuff. I think I might wait a bit on the anthro book because I don't want to buy it (unless I can find it cheap) if I'll never end up using it, like my psych book. I'm pretty excited about school starting, surprisingly enough. As much as I hated school last year, I don't think I'll have the same problem this term. I still need to get signed up for J100. I should send Susan Byers an email...That's another thing on my list to do today.
There's an idea. I could make a list of things to do today. I could do it each day. How long do you think that would last? Two...Three days? Tops? That sounds about right. I could try it. Maybe I should start another blog. Either that or just edit my "Stop Worrying and Start Living" blog. After the nice little argument I had with Chris a while back, I don't really feel like reading that anymore. Maybe a little organization is all I need.
That and to tweeze my eyebrows and file my nails down a bit.
Hopefully today marks a new life for me. A life of getting drinks and running credit cards and flirting with guys at lunch. I hope they let me know right away. I really don't know if I can stand to wait another week to hear back. The whole DeBrand's experience just sucked ass. In about an hour and 15 minutes, I need to call Fricker's and assess the damage. Until then, I need to do dishes and clean the house a bit. Maybe I'll fold Chris's undershirts too. That would be nice of me, wouldn't it?