The Guilt Continues

Well, as for my cabled hat, it's coming along swimmingly. Actually, the damn thing is falling apart. I love the orange I'm using, but I discovered that I don't have enough to finish the hat by far. So, I'm deciding whether to rip it out completely and buy new yarn or emergency stripe it. Hmm. These are pressing questions indeed. When beginning the first round, I didn't pull my yarn tight enough on my purl stitches (the ribbing worked is P3, K3) and the gap between the first and third needles is pretty grotesque. However, I am finding it difficult to just say the hell with it and rip it out. Why, you ask?
1. I've never made anything cabled before. I don't want to get this far (I've just completed my first chart which I now need to repeat twice more) and just rip it's guts out. I'm too attached at this point.
2. It's true that I've never cabled before, but I know the function of a cable needle. I also know that you can cable without needles. I also know that you don't actually have to go out and buy some fancy shmancy cable needle. However, never in my years as a knitter have I heard of anyone using a crochet hook as a cable needle until now. Yes, that's right. I've been using a size H crochet hook as my cable needle. And you know what? It does a darn good job.
So you see, I am having a rough time ripping it apart and starting over. I really would like to go out and buy new yarn for it. Something hand-dyed or fuzzy. I really don't have the money to do such a thing, but I really would like to.
As promised, I will post a picture of my amigurumi lion I worked so tirelessly on.

Lies. I can't upload a picture from here. I must go, I have to go get picked up by boyfriend. Damn car dying...

Guilt

Oh my, how I feel the guilt of never blogging anymore. Trust me, I feel absolutely awful and I plan on keeping up a little bit better this year than I have in the past.
New knitting:
I started a blanket. True, it's a crocheted granny square "patchwork" type blanket, but I figured if I'm going to have my own place from now on, it's high time I settled down and made a blanket.
Amigurumi!! I have started making my own little yarn menagerie, and I couldn't love these little guys any more! They are super easy, super fun, and super customizable. I took a "dude" pattern and turned it into a lion with some sparkley gold yarn and some dark orange. I actually HAVE a picture of this project, so I can actually show the world what I've been up to.
I'm gonna make an orange cable hat. I have been knitting for years now and I haven't made a damn thing cabled. What better than a super cute orange hat? I printed off my pattern and will hopefully have it finished by the end of this weekend.

In other news, I'm finally moved and settled and starting to learn what it's like to live with someone. It's crazy. I really enjoy it and I'm sure there will be many happy days to come with my love.
In other, more heartbraking news, my car has officially died. The engine had been having trouble for weeks now and I knew it was only a matter of time before the poor thing finally gave in to the temptation of an easier life as chop shop parts. A junk yard payed me $150 for it, which I found incredibly generous considering the shape my poor car was in, and it has now been crushed into scrap metal. It breaks my heart just thinking about it. Chris has to drive me around everywhere now and I feel awful because his car is really bad on gas mileage. I won't feel so bad after I totally clean his car this weekend and give him $30 for gas money.
New jobs, new place, new car...
Since when have I ever acted this much like an adult? Geeze, this world sneaks up on you.

I think I have some more to say, but I have a math test I need to go take. Yuck. Wish me luck, for I shall need it.

Blankets are Fun

I've started a blanket. A granny square blanket. Crazy, right?

New Year's Resolutions

I have made my resolutions. But, it's going to take me some time to work through them. But hey, isn't that what they are supposed to do? Build character and whatnot? I think I will type them out here, that way I will remember them every time I blog.
1. Get my life in order
2. Keep myself out of debt and in class
3. Start and finish a sweater
4. Blog more often

I know they aren't terribly great resolutions. The first one is going to be my biggest challenge. I've decided to start doing certain things more often and stop doing certain things as often as I do. So, those are it.

I'm not exactly happy because I am too poor to start my sweater I so badly want to. But I am also unhappy about the fact that the hat I was looking at yesterday is now corrupted and I can't access the file. Actually, I am pissed.

I just recently realized the Professor Trelawny from the Harry Potter movies is the author from Stranger than Fiction. That makes me unbelievable happy for no real particular reason.

I need to finish Kacy's hat. I am really frustrated that I can't find my books or my scrapbooking stuff or my shoes. I really wish that Brandi and Jeremy weren't so pissed off at me. I need to move back to Fort Wayne and get everything situated. Not just so I can get my stuff back, but because I can't afford this anymore. I think I will take Alycia's mom up on the offer of letting me stay with her. Maybe if Chris and I really hit it off, we can move in together. Maybe...That's a huge maybe at this point. I can't picture us living together yet, mostly because of how things turned out with Jessy. I don't know. It would be nice, but we will see sometime.

I want to knit that damn hat and the pattern won't work. I don't know why she couldn't just type it up on her blog. Why she had to make the damn thing a seperate link is beyond me. This sucks. I will try again soon.

I'm cleaning my room tomorrow. Period. Until then, I'm going to knit and look for an apartment.

Never Shall It Die

Yes, I stole the title from Pirates of the Carribean.
No, it pertains nothing to pirates. Today, I have discovered my stash swallowing solid objects. Pattern books and crochet hooks, nothing stays around long when placed near my ever-growing stash.
I am experiencing knitter's block. I have gone through countless books and websites and I have come up with nothing new. Grr. I think I will pull out my old blouse from last year. That's the only that sounds fun at this point.
I want to make something for Chris, but I don't know what. I never see him wear slippers or scarves or hats. I don't really know what I want to make yet. I really would love to make him a sweater, but I don't have the patience or the attention span. Nor am I totally sure I'm ready to make that kind of commitment on either my time, money, or relationship. I do not know.
I am going to go work on my blouse. I've come to loathe it over the past few months. Maybe I'll just give it to Ande.
Confound these damn nails.

A New Life

I'm trading in my old life for a new one. My old one is just plain boring.
My job is boring. And wrong. I hate the fact that I am stuck in girls 1 all the time even though I was hired to work in the stock room and doing updates. I have done neither. Not true, I picked up an update shift that wasn't mine, and I took an update shift from Alycia last week. So, basically, I haven't done a damn thing I was hired to do. I mindlessly fold clothes and tell people to try our new fragrence "SoCal" (which doesn't smell nearly as good as Ryder.)
School is boring. We are almost at finals week. Which means we don't do a damn thing at school. So, school is boring.
I am tired of this life. I'm trading it in for a new one.
But, with good news: I have my yarn back from my old apartment! The day is saved. And the sequins will be useful again.

Oh, the Comfort of Reese's Cups

I'm sure that at this point in my life, there is only one thing that will make me feel better.
Reese's Cups.
There is so much I need to do with my life right now. I am finding it hard to do any of it.
I need a hug. There are very few people who I want hugs from. None of them are available at this point. This blows so much ass. I am miserable. I really don't know how much more of this I can take before I do something really drastic. Like burning my damn teddy bear.
I want to make mittens.
I want someone to hold me. I want someone to cuddle with me. I want someone to come fix all my problems. Maybe I'll just drive home and hope for a roommate to call me.
I hate being a grown up.